So today is the first day post detox. I seem to be crazy hungry today and I’m not quite sure why. Where as usually a cup of broth or tea is just fine for breakfast today I was ravished! So I made some breakfast for a change!! I had 2 eggs scrambled, a couple sausages and then I had the most delicious tasting mandarine ever! hahaha. I found these gems at the farmers market on Sunday and bought a few looking forward to being able to eat them starting today.
I weighed in this morning still at 227. That puts me at a total of 8lbs for the 3 weeks. A part of me was really upset by that though. I mean COME ON! No sugar and awesome eating for a whole week and no loss?! But then I realize when I have thoughts like that, that I’m not healed from my past disorders. This detox wasn’t about losing weight it was about getting myself right with God. About knowing that I didn’t need sugar for fulfillment I need Him. I thought I had gotten there but apparently I still have a lot of growing to do.
So I put up my scale and I’m going to allow myself some fruit until Feb 4th. That’s when another round of the 21 DSD starts up and this time I’m going to try and move up a level. I still have a desire to be a goal weight by my birthday (June). And maybe that’s not ok, maybe I need to pray about that. I need to be happy with being a healthier me.
You know what the problem is though? I don’t feel healthier. Just yesterday my back was killing me! I couldn’t sit or stand without getting comfortable, my bowel movements are horrible again and I’ve been getting stomach aches after eating. For the last couple of dinner it’s barely been 30 min until I have RUN to the bathroom. And just this morning after breakfast I felt ill. So I still have a lot of discovering to do.
I have been incorporating more exercises yesterday and today in the hopes of helping out with my back pain. I had gotten a bit bored with the 21 DSD workouts so I decided to mix it up a bit. My goal now is to try and run a mile a few times a week and see how my times are doing. Today I “ran” a mile in 16:10. I remember when I was in highschool I could run a mile in just under 13 min, and when I was 21 and first lost all my weight I could just about reach that if I killed myself. So I always have 13 as my magic number. After the running I still do a lot of the strength training that was in the 21 DSD workout guide, just put in my own order and routine.