Yesterday was crazy. I spent most of the day trying to perfect my daughters cupcakes for her birthday but forgot to eat anything during the process! Since her birthday will fall right in the middle of the next 21 Day Sugar Detox I knew I had to get all the test baking in on Sunday. But I think I had one too many taste tests because I turned into a complete disaster.
I had no patience with anything or anyone. My daughters cries were going right through me and I said to my husband all I wanted to do was punch her. I mean really?! But yes I did! That’s how insane I was. I then stormed out of the house because I was fighting with my husband and honestly nervous over what I would throw at him.
Here’s the good part though, in the past when these kind of things would happen the first place I would go is through the taco bell drive through. I’m not joking when I say I would get the 10 taco meal deal, but just for me. It was like I would want to punish myself for being so crazy and make myself so full until I was sick.
Well I did go through the drive thru again, but I didn’t stop I just kept driving. I was even adamantly trying to shut God out and NOT listen to him because I just wanted the sweet relief of a crunchy taco in my mouth. God is so amazing though and knew the true desires of my heart and seriously I felt him push my foot down and steer the wheel the opposite direction. It was an amazing feeling overcoming something that had been such a huge part of my life for the past year.
To try and break the habit I went over to Starbucks and got a peppermint tea. I sipped on that and read my book while I tried to relax before going home.
Then that night I felt like I had the flu! I could barely move I was in so much pain, I was just so achey. I took my temperature I thought I had for sure caught something. But nope I was fine, and it was then I realized I was having the opposite effect of carb flu. I had in fact had TOO MUCH sugar and was getting sick because of it! Crazy to think I of all people could have too much sugar. Even it was all in the form of dark chocolate, maple syrup and honey.
I woke up this morning with a crazy headache and just resigned myself to the fact that I was going to have to get over this sugar hangover for the rest of the day. Thankfully I started to feel better later on. And the one good thing about all this was when I went out to dinner tonight with some of my girl friends I didn’t even think twice about dipping into their fondue deserts. There was no way I wanted to feel that way again.
I lost the plot today. I let myself get too hungry when I was out with my daughter so instead of being able to calmly order a yummy Mediterranean salad I also had to go and get a side of yummy fries. Ugh potatoes are my downfall! I then came home and had the biggest sweet tooth. First I ate one of my daughters dried fruit snacks and then I remembered something. There is a box of gobstoppers in the car glove box!
Yes, there really was a box. I had bought a box months ago when I was in a sad place and wanted something sweet at a movie theater, then I hid them in the car when I got home so hubby wouldn’t find out. Yea, not so good. And for some reason I forgot about them all this time until just now! I should have relied on God, I should have thrown them in the dumpster by our place, or poured soap all over them. Instead I shut out what I should have done and went outside to read my book and snack on gobstoppers.
I had such a nice an relaxing time. It really bugs me now when I look back on it. Like why do I need to be eating something sweet in order to be having a good time? Sometimes I get so frustrated when things like this happen because I’ve been feeling so good about everything and have been doing so well. This definitely shows me I need another 21 days of no sugar though. *sigh*
So as a way to help direct my sugar cravings towards a better path I spent some time making pumpkin doughnuts tonight. Probably wasn’t the best to eat two of them right after though. The crazy thing is even though my stomach is hurting (which by the way is scaring me) I feel like I could eat two more. What is up with that?!
Last night I made the most amazing pumpkin muffins. These muffins were reminiscent of my pre paleo days when my sister and I would make pumpkin muffins from a tin of pumpkin and a box of betty crocker. We would then slab on loads of cool whip (fat free, naturally) And indulge all night long.
These bad boys, I would hastened to say, are even better! Especially with the Maple/Cinnamon frosting I added.
The muffins themselves come from The Primal Palate. So pop on over there to check out how to make them. Check out the ingredient list though!
1/2 cup coconut flour, sifted
6 omega 3 eggs
1/4 cup coconut oil
1/2 cup yacon syrup, or maple syrup
1/2 cup pure pumpkin puree
1/2 tsp sea salt or kosher salt
1/4 tsp baking soda
1 tablespoon vanilla extract
1 tablespoon pumpkin spice blend
Super simple, super easy, and I seriously just threw everything in the food processor and voila! Yumminess!
As for the icing I tried looking for a few different recipes online but nothing really took my fancy so I thought I would experiment and I think I came up with an AMAZING tasting frosting. This frosting made enough to put on the 7 muffins that came out of the above recipe (I know 7, weird right? I think had I not filled them so high I could have had 9. As it was they fluffed up so much I had to cut them in half!)
*I can’t stress enough how amazing Palm Shortening is. I get mine from Tropical Traditions and this stuff is worth it’s weight in gold when it comes to paleo baked goods. In fact! I’ve been so afraid to use my gallon bucket, this is actually the first time I did! Crazy balls I know! But after seeing what an amazing texture it is I’m super excited to try out a load of new recipes. My favorite thing about it? I doesn’t taste like coconuts! I’m sorry I like coconut oil/cream/milk/etc as much as the next guy. But if I have to have one more baked good that tastes like coconut I may just scream. Just a little
**I’m thinking that all the ingredients may fluff up better with a hand mixer. I don’t have one sadly enough. After ours broke and we had an immersion blender and a food processor I thought it a bit much to get another mixer. Alas I think it’s time to get another. The immersion blender just made it all a big mess. And where as the food processor worked just fine, for some things you just need that extra fluff and I am not an old school, put some elbow grease behind it, kinda mixer.