With my back hurting as much as it does I finally got my MRI and then an appointment to see a neurosurgeon. According my MRI my L5 nerve is pinched to the left side. But interestingly it’s my right leg that hurst the most and is the one that feels numb and tingly. When the neurosurgeon examined me it was also my right leg that showed weakness So this was challenging for him to decide what to do. In the end I didn’t mind that he said I didn’t need surgery. Heck! I didn’t want it in the first place! But then I was told I would have to wait another 2 weeks to see the Pain management and rehab doctor to even DISCUSS gover etting an epidural steroid shot.
That was when the whole thing was overwhelming for me. I mean I’ve already dealt with this pain for so long. I’ve put my life on hold for this pain for over 2 weeks now. There was NO WAY I could do it for another 2 weeks! I would go insane! Thankfully I now have an amazing doctor (she has done more for me in 2 weeks than my doctor on Kaiser ever did in 18 months!) and she took the time to speak with me on the phone after the appointment and try to work out how I am going to cope over the next two weeks.
The result? Oral steroids. I tried as hard as I could to stay away from those crazy things for as long as I’ve had this back pain but it seems as though they’ve finally caught up with me. I don’t seem to have any other choice though. Currently I’m taking Tumeric, reveratrol, 10mg hydro, 1000 acet, and 10gm flexeril. (Man looking at it that way, that’s a lot!) in addition to eating a pretty strict auto immune paleo diet to keep my inflammation down, along with my morning cup of bone broth, my fclo 2x a day. I’m still averaging out around a 5-6 in pain when I’m trying to lead a normal life. Yes I can get my pain down to a 1 even a 0 when I’m laying down. But honestly I can’t live like this much longer.
So starting tomorrow I’m going to be taking Prednisone for 14 days. It’s quite a crazy and complicated schedule. I have to take 6 pills for 5 days each and then gradually take less. I’m not looking forward to the side effects. They can include weight gain from an increased appetite, insomnia, acne, swelling (which I find funny since it’s an anti inflammatory) and stomach problems which is an issue with me and my IBD.
My doctor also gave me some sort of antacid to take with my Pred but I’d rather not take it so have decided instead to go the ACV route and do a tbsp before each meal and see how I feel. It shouldn’t hurt, and maybe will keep my appetite in check as well. I intend to make sure I’m getting plenty of protein and calcium. Since I don’t do dairy my calcium will come from my chicken broth (brewed with egg shells for more calcium!), and my veggies. I know a lot of the weight gain will come from water retention so I’m going to drink extra water and stay away from take aways (even if they are paleo approved Thai cuisine).
I’m going to try an document how I feel through out the course of the steroids. I think it will be good for me to look back on and see how they made me feel. Both for my own personal records and to discuss further treatment with my doctors. I’m kind of hoping though that it’s just enough to get my disc back in place so I can move on with my life. Let’s just say I will not be playing volleyball or going on any retreats any time soon!
Ok so my back has been KILLING me over the last few weeks. I’m pretty sure it all started when I went to some retreat with the women from my church. It was a great experience and all but I realized then that my back is just not cut out for bad bunk beds, hikes, and sitting indian style. From that weekend onwards there’s always been a bit of pain that I couldn’t seem to shift. And then WHAM! One day after seeing my chiropractor it all just gave out and I had to drive my car the 15 min it takes to get home in extreme pain and agony. Like deep moaning during labor pain.
Well today while I was still in pain and basically can do nothing but lay in bed I realized that actually I’m doing SO MUCH MORE than just laying in bed. I’m laying there having a complete pity party on myself when my husband stops me and says “What do you call all that downstairs cooking? Because I don’t call that nothing” And then I realized in spite of all my pain I still managed to cook a beef heart stew, make chicken broth and render down the fat from the heart to get some tallow. Not to mention I still took the time to soak oatmeal for tomorrow and make more homemade coconut milk kefir…WHAT?!
When did this happen that whipping up a stew with organ meat is so normal to me now that whilst doing it I felt like I was doing nothing! I mean even just a year ago I swear putting in a Stouffer’s lasagna in the oven was hard work. Wow I really need to get off my own back and realize the progress I’ve made over the last few years. So what that the house is a mess? So what if my daughter is maybe watching one too many Elmo’s since I can’t play with her. I’m in a season in my life right now where I just have to survive. And again if I’m surviving off home made organ meats, broth and tallow then I think life is going to be alright.
You know you’ve lost the plot when you’re watching Biggest Loser while stuffing your face full of tacos and nachos from taco bell and drinking your daughter’s juice boxes. All while supposedly on some sort of sugar detox.
But that’s what I have this blog so I can keep track of all the times I fall completely off the wagon. I know I need to just get myself back up again but sometimes it can just be so hard. 😦
Yesterday was crazy. I spent most of the day trying to perfect my daughters cupcakes for her birthday but forgot to eat anything during the process! Since her birthday will fall right in the middle of the next 21 Day Sugar Detox I knew I had to get all the test baking in on Sunday. But I think I had one too many taste tests because I turned into a complete disaster.
I had no patience with anything or anyone. My daughters cries were going right through me and I said to my husband all I wanted to do was punch her. I mean really?! But yes I did! That’s how insane I was. I then stormed out of the house because I was fighting with my husband and honestly nervous over what I would throw at him.
Here’s the good part though, in the past when these kind of things would happen the first place I would go is through the taco bell drive through. I’m not joking when I say I would get the 10 taco meal deal, but just for me. It was like I would want to punish myself for being so crazy and make myself so full until I was sick.
Well I did go through the drive thru again, but I didn’t stop I just kept driving. I was even adamantly trying to shut God out and NOT listen to him because I just wanted the sweet relief of a crunchy taco in my mouth. God is so amazing though and knew the true desires of my heart and seriously I felt him push my foot down and steer the wheel the opposite direction. It was an amazing feeling overcoming something that had been such a huge part of my life for the past year.
To try and break the habit I went over to Starbucks and got a peppermint tea. I sipped on that and read my book while I tried to relax before going home.
Then that night I felt like I had the flu! I could barely move I was in so much pain, I was just so achey. I took my temperature I thought I had for sure caught something. But nope I was fine, and it was then I realized I was having the opposite effect of carb flu. I had in fact had TOO MUCH sugar and was getting sick because of it! Crazy to think I of all people could have too much sugar. Even it was all in the form of dark chocolate, maple syrup and honey.
I woke up this morning with a crazy headache and just resigned myself to the fact that I was going to have to get over this sugar hangover for the rest of the day. Thankfully I started to feel better later on. And the one good thing about all this was when I went out to dinner tonight with some of my girl friends I didn’t even think twice about dipping into their fondue deserts. There was no way I wanted to feel that way again.
Oh wow yesterday was just horrible, I had no energy, I didn’t want to do anything. And you know what I didn’t, and I felt like crap because of it. My back was horribly sore and I craved something sweet allllll day long. It’s interesting how that works out. The awesome thing is I relied on God and didn’t give into the temptations of pigging out on whatever I had in the house that was sweet. So yes I’m making progress even if I did watch 3 hours of TV and play 2 hours of Wii. And not the good kind of wii, the sit on your butt and use a remote control kind.
Lunch today was left over Shepard’s Pie, Kombucha and some supplements.
The Good: I did my workout today while watching TV! Funnily enough it was while watch Biggest Loser. Which usually I like to eat cookies and watch. Odd I know.
The Great: And certainly the better news is that when I weighed myself this morning I was 227!! That’s down 2 lbs from last week. What I love about this detox is that it’s not about losing weight, and the old me would have actually be frustrated, YES frustrated at losing only 2lbs even thought I’ve done so much work. But now I’m like 2lbs?! Rock on! I didn’t even expect to lose anything this week.
The Ugly: My sleep was so messed up after a day of blahness yesterday that after I dropped my daughter off at her friends house this morning instead of getting stuff done around the house I just went back to bed.
We have Netflix and no cable, which sounds like a great idea. Less TV to watch! That is until you get sucked into a show that you’re 4 seasons behind on. It’s like reading a really good book before going to bed or trying to get anything productive done, you can’t help but turn the page. It’s the same, for me at least, when I’m watching a whole series because I have every episode available to me right then and there. I think it’s actually better to not be able to get the next episode for another week. I sometimes with I could read a book that way. Just have someone send me a chapter a night so I HAVE to go to bed and I’m not up until 2am finishing a book I started just 2 days ago.
Wait what was my point? Oh yea, so how much is too much? I think the purists would say any TV is too much! But meh, I’m still human and I still enjoy being entertained, so we’re keeping the TV for now. But getting nothing done around the house during nap time (2 hours of tv) and then staying up past when you husband goes to bed to watch more of the same show (2-3 hours) is just insane. But that was the cycle I was getting into over the last few weeks.
So my goal for this week and then hopefully the ones to follow is to watch only 1 show a day. Most likely during nap time and when I’m eating my lunch. I don’t have a problem eating in front of the TV. I find I enjoy my food just fine, if not better because I’m relaxed, I’m sitting down and I’m just enjoying myself. At night I may play a bit of Mario on the Wii. Yes it’s sill on the TV but it’s not mind numbing, I actually have to use my brain. I also know it’s not what I want to be doing every night (sewing, scrap booking and bible study are just a small list of my perfect life scenarios) but I’m not perfect and it might take me a while to get to partially perfect. So until then I’ll work on ways to break my habits. And in that case I’ve always found slow and steady wins the race.
How about you? Do you find it difficult to pull yourself away from the TV and get stuff done?