So today is the first day post detox. I seem to be crazy hungry today and I’m not quite sure why. Where as usually a cup of broth or tea is just fine for breakfast today I was ravished! So I made some breakfast for a change!! I had 2 eggs scrambled, a couple sausages and then I had the most delicious tasting mandarine ever! hahaha. I found these gems at the farmers market on Sunday and bought a few looking forward to being able to eat them starting today.
I weighed in this morning still at 227. That puts me at a total of 8lbs for the 3 weeks. A part of me was really upset by that though. I mean COME ON! No sugar and awesome eating for a whole week and no loss?! But then I realize when I have thoughts like that, that I’m not healed from my past disorders. This detox wasn’t about losing weight it was about getting myself right with God. About knowing that I didn’t need sugar for fulfillment I need Him. I thought I had gotten there but apparently I still have a lot of growing to do.
So I put up my scale and I’m going to allow myself some fruit until Feb 4th. That’s when another round of the 21 DSD starts up and this time I’m going to try and move up a level. I still have a desire to be a goal weight by my birthday (June). And maybe that’s not ok, maybe I need to pray about that. I need to be happy with being a healthier me.
You know what the problem is though? I don’t feel healthier. Just yesterday my back was killing me! I couldn’t sit or stand without getting comfortable, my bowel movements are horrible again and I’ve been getting stomach aches after eating. For the last couple of dinner it’s barely been 30 min until I have RUN to the bathroom. And just this morning after breakfast I felt ill. So I still have a lot of discovering to do.
I have been incorporating more exercises yesterday and today in the hopes of helping out with my back pain. I had gotten a bit bored with the 21 DSD workouts so I decided to mix it up a bit. My goal now is to try and run a mile a few times a week and see how my times are doing. Today I “ran” a mile in 16:10. I remember when I was in highschool I could run a mile in just under 13 min, and when I was 21 and first lost all my weight I could just about reach that if I killed myself. So I always have 13 as my magic number. After the running I still do a lot of the strength training that was in the 21 DSD workout guide, just put in my own order and routine.
Oh wow yesterday was just horrible, I had no energy, I didn’t want to do anything. And you know what I didn’t, and I felt like crap because of it. My back was horribly sore and I craved something sweet allllll day long. It’s interesting how that works out. The awesome thing is I relied on God and didn’t give into the temptations of pigging out on whatever I had in the house that was sweet. So yes I’m making progress even if I did watch 3 hours of TV and play 2 hours of Wii. And not the good kind of wii, the sit on your butt and use a remote control kind.
Lunch today was left over Shepard’s Pie, Kombucha and some supplements.
The Good: I did my workout today while watching TV! Funnily enough it was while watch Biggest Loser. Which usually I like to eat cookies and watch. Odd I know.
The Great: And certainly the better news is that when I weighed myself this morning I was 227!! That’s down 2 lbs from last week. What I love about this detox is that it’s not about losing weight, and the old me would have actually be frustrated, YES frustrated at losing only 2lbs even thought I’ve done so much work. But now I’m like 2lbs?! Rock on! I didn’t even expect to lose anything this week.
The Ugly: My sleep was so messed up after a day of blahness yesterday that after I dropped my daughter off at her friends house this morning instead of getting stuff done around the house I just went back to bed.
The Good: Late tonight I really wanted something sweet, even tempted to have one of my daughters more ripe bananas. But I just made some tea and kept out of the fridge for the rest of night. woot!
The Great: This afternoon I took my daughter to the park all decked out in my workout clothes. Usually we go to a small enough park that no ones there and I have done a few of my detox exercises there. Well this afternoon it was pretty full but I just humbled myself and did them anyways. And the crazy thing is the amount of energy I had. I’m usually the mom that sits on the bench listening to her podcast (usually Balanced Bites or The Paleo View!) hoping my daughter is ok, not because I’m worried about her, but because I don’t want to get up. But this afternoon inbetween my wall pushups and my step ups I was running around with her, even picking her up and holding her during one of my step up rounds. I feel like I may be coming out on the other end of this detox finally.
The Awesome: I know this detox isn’t about weight loss for everyone, but for me it is. Getting rid of sugar is slowly fixing my insulin resistance and one way I know that’s work is by losing weight. Well all that said this morning I weighed in at 229lbs!!!! That’s 6lbs gone! but wow I haven’t been in the 220’s since I was first pregnant with my daughter who turns 2 next month. Only 5 more lbs until I’m at my pre-pregnancy weight and officially 50lbs down. I’m trying hard not to get my hopes up for that to happen next week, so my goal is I just want to be at least that by the end of this detox.
I woke up this morning at around 7am with an IBD attack again. Thankfully taking my IBD meds and a Vicodin worked this time (it DID NOT work the other day) And I was able to get some more sleep. All this is really showing me that I need to get back on track pronto.
On a positive note being sick has made day 1 of the 21 Day Sugar Detox very easy. Since I didn’t even wake up until 11:30 (God bless my amazing sleeping child) I didn’t even eat until closer to 1pm and when I did it wasn’t much since my stomach is still queasy. Simply a mug of broth with some kelp salt and a strip of bacon.
The Good: I managed to do the work out planned out in the 21 Day Sugar Detox. Took me hardly any time at all yet I it felt good to get off the couch and do something.
The Bad: Went to a friends house for dinner tonight, and since I need to be honest I will confess that I had a few potato chips (baked in olive oil, at least); some roasted white potatoes and a glass of red wine (which I didn’t finish, at least. The rest of the meal was Pork, carrots and brocoli) I am happy to say I did not eat the flavored yogurt, fruit or chocolate she had set out. And though it’s no excuse, I did not have my allotted banana or apple today to kind of “make up” for it. Tomorrow is another day and another chance to get it right.