Ok so my back has been KILLING me over the last few weeks. I’m pretty sure it all started when I went to some retreat with the women from my church. It was a great experience and all but I realized then that my back is just not cut out for bad bunk beds, hikes, and sitting indian style. From that weekend onwards there’s always been a bit of pain that I couldn’t seem to shift. And then WHAM! One day after seeing my chiropractor it all just gave out and I had to drive my car the 15 min it takes to get home in extreme pain and agony. Like deep moaning during labor pain.
Well today while I was still in pain and basically can do nothing but lay in bed I realized that actually I’m doing SO MUCH MORE than just laying in bed. I’m laying there having a complete pity party on myself when my husband stops me and says “What do you call all that downstairs cooking? Because I don’t call that nothing” And then I realized in spite of all my pain I still managed to cook a beef heart stew, make chicken broth and render down the fat from the heart to get some tallow. Not to mention I still took the time to soak oatmeal for tomorrow and make more homemade coconut milk kefir…WHAT?!
When did this happen that whipping up a stew with organ meat is so normal to me now that whilst doing it I felt like I was doing nothing! I mean even just a year ago I swear putting in a Stouffer’s lasagna in the oven was hard work. Wow I really need to get off my own back and realize the progress I’ve made over the last few years. So what that the house is a mess? So what if my daughter is maybe watching one too many Elmo’s since I can’t play with her. I’m in a season in my life right now where I just have to survive. And again if I’m surviving off home made organ meats, broth and tallow then I think life is going to be alright.